Some days the ordinary is overwhelming and sometimes even if life was still ordinary, it would be overwhelming. I'm having one of those days today. Most of my day was just ordinary stuff but sprinkle that in with a bit of the extra going on right now and it just gets crazy. So, on the ordinary side of today, the car needed to have the oil changed, one of the dogs threw up breakfast on the clean carpet, another one had a tick on her, Brooke has a cold, the house needs to be cleaned (there is still a piece of furniture in the kitchen from when the carpets were cleaned) and Dennis had a headache. (Headaches post-surgery and during radiation can signal brain swelling.) So we call the oncologist to see if there is reason for concern and what to do at this point. We get a very nice on-call doctor who said Dennis may need to come in for an MRI to confirm if this is swelling or not. Then our regular oncologist calls back and in the course of the conversation again asks us if we have met with the psych staff because we are uptight about all that is going on. That was the part of my day that put me over the edge. It seems like when we ask questions, that is the response. Don't get me wrong, he is a great doctor and actually answers calls and talks to his patients. I appreciate that but I'm going to ask questions. The more I know and understand the better prepared I am to help Dennis along the way. I'm far worse if I'm not told. The fact is, the chance of Dennis having swelling that would cause problems is low because of the size of the space left after the tumor was removed. Ok, that would have been a good piece of information to have told me. By the way, all of the above happened before noon. UGH!
So, we decided to get in some fun together and headed to a county fair. Not the best plan in 90 degree weather. We stayed for a little while. Brooke got to pet a pig, sheep and goat; ride a pony and see the sea lion show. We then headed to Grandma's house for a little while.
On the way home, God graciously reminded us of His watch care over us by providing us with a full arch rainbow with a slight double rainbow over it. It was lovely and so unexpected in the midst of the crazy, hot, dry summer we are having.
Yes, this is a crazy time in our lives. We are not sure of the outcome but we are sure of the One who watches over us, loves us and provides for us.